Gwad, I really really tried not to fall back into my old habits at university. It's week 5 in the semester and I'm struggling like no tomorrow. I have no motivation to do this anymore. I feel like I can't do this!

I want to quit. Really.

I've been really unhappy for the past couple of weeks and my mental health is the shit. My family is driving me insane. I have no friends in Toronto. I feel like I'm trapped in the house. I've become slightly obsessed with counting calories. My mother keeps dictating what I eat and questioning everything I eat. Then she goes and tells me to eat some chocolates and that she bought cake.

Every now and then, the voice in my head tells me that I have no will to live either.