*sighs* I absolutely hate tests. I love learning, but I hate memorizing stuff in a big hurry. In fact, I'm horribly bad at it.

I didn't do well on my practical exam today. It was nervous, anxious and tried my best. But trying your best doesn't mean much when you can't remember the answer and it's short answer. I hope I passed. I think I knew enough to pass.

After 1 term test, 1 practical test and 1 in-class assignment, I am freakin' tired. I am in no mood or have the energy to study for the midterm tomorrow morning. Totally not prepared for that one. Should have started studying for it last week like my friends. Sorry girls, but I can only do one thing at a time.

Will I know enough to pass? I honestly don't know, hope so but I have no idea. I mean, I worked hard during the lectures/labs to make sure I knew what I was doing. But sometimes it's not enough. Sadly.

I know that a 60% is a pass, but isn't it bad to know the minimal? Considering that they don't expect us to achieve 100% and remember every single thing, how much do we have to know? 60% of what's taught to us and it's good enough?

I was told that they're rather hire students who have a 70% but understand rather than a student with 80's. That begs the question, if you get 80's doesn't that mean you understand the material better? I don't get it. I really really don't.

Honestly, I don't think I can do this. Just because I 've been getting good marks only means that they've been easy on us. Heh. Sadly, I know it's true.

I'm tired, anxious, depressed and want to give up on everything in this world. But I don't have the nerve to kill myself. It'd be nice if I just died in place of someone who got into an accident. I mean, they don't want to die. Their loved ones don't want them to die. So why can't I just take their place?